Pain, distress, agony - they exist. They exist for certain and it is their mere existence which has enveloped thousands of individuals within their hold. Their horrific existence is no different to a monster which always keeps you frightened. The fear of 'losing' is that what haunts me the most. Fear of losing - my loved ones, my goals, the achievements I aim for. This damn crippling fear makes life so meaningless at times. Inspite of the fact that life has become so void you still fear the presumable losses. Had I been given a second chance i'd go for being a bird rather than a human. Being a bird, undoubtedly there would be other monstrous issues coming for me but I would be given the chance to FLY...Fly off, fly away from all the terrors. Leaving back the devlish grip which binds my heart to nothingness....but fly away with my wings flapping through air and yes emptying this body of all the remnants of the hideousness I got from this world.